Becoming a vitki

I first became aware of the word vitki in my runic studies. Edred Thorsson used the word to describe anyone studying the runes. And that narrow definition was enough for me. I started referring to myself as a vitki because I was studying and using the runes. Simple.

When I seriously decided (or it was decided for me) to dedicate myself to this path six years ago I still thought it was just about the runes. But the more I studied and dedicated myself the more and more out of balance I became. I was totally focused on the masculine side of esoteric Asatru. The feminine was sorely lacking. So I did some research about two years ago. I was introduced to the concept of seidr. It was definitely a way to access the feminine. I decided to give it a try. If it was going enough for Odin…

My first few experiences were spontaneous. I would be sitting relaxing and I would get a message for someone. When I told the person about the message I’d received they would verify my impression. Then I started pursuing seidr in earnest.

I read a few books. I got a drum. I started having intense trance sessions. The rest is history.

Now I’m on a much more balanced path. I spend time each day studying and practicing both the runes and seidr. Clients may need me to use both skills to get understandable answers. So I’m busy filling up my toolbox with the tools of my trade.

I call myself a vitki. I have contacted the gods on this issue through both runes and seidr and they approve. Members of my clan call me vitki as well. But for me it’s not just about being proficient in the runes. It’s about so much more. So I have learned a lot about the vitki path over the years. Every day brings new lessons. Every day I do my best to claim the title of vitki. And I think that’s all the gods require.

Back to nature wights

I’m not so sure why I allowed myself to become so out of touch with nature. But I did. And as an important aspect of the vitki lifestyle I decided to do something about it.

As a child I was very in touch with nature. We had a family farm. We always had a huge family vegetable garden that it was my job to help tend. My preteen job was shoveling snow and cutting lawns, which kept me attuned to the seasons of the year. Of course there was always raking leaves. Lots to keep me close to the land and especially the passing of the seasons.

Then there were the summers. Time off school meant endless hours in nature. I’d go out with my father to the fields. I’d sit for the day exploring the piles of dirt and the life existing in them. Bugs were my favorites. I’d let them crawl on my hands and forearms. They’d keep me amazed at the endless colors, shapes and sizes. Sometimes I would just sit on a pile of dirt crushing clumps of earth in my hands. Plant life was everywhere. Crops growing, prairie grass, weeds blooming flowers. A favorite pastime was to search for wild carrot flowers in the shape of a cup. Then I’d pretend to drink from them.  Many happy contented hours and days passed in solitude with nothing but my nature friends to amuse me.

Then I became a teenager. I knew I had to move to a more urban setting to follow my dreams. I left nature behind, a footnote of my childhood, to pursue new paths. No more bugs and clumps of dirt.

Now I’m feeling the pull of nature again. I’m rethinking my connection with nature. I have a garden of green wights that I tend in my ritual room. The big rocks in a half circle outside my building have told me their energy is elhaz — protection. I walk the dogs and notice the smell after a rain. A dragonfly hovers a foot in front of my face. And I notice for the first time in decades.

Being in touch with the wights helps to calm me. For me their energy is slower than mine. So being in touch with them slows me down and calms me. I am reminded of the natural way to mark the passing of time. I find peace in talking with natural beings. But sometimes I find myself wanting to sit on a pile of dirt crushing clumps of earth for hours on end.

Go fetch!

I admit to only really working with my fetch for the last year or so. So my ideas and experiences of it my be a bit immature. But here goes!

The fetch (or fylgia if you prefer) is one of the nine aspects of Self we work with in the Nordic Tradition. As a part of Self it differs from the power animal of shamanic tradition which is outside of Self. Fetch is definitely inside of Self. This has been my experience at least.

How do I utilize the fetch?  To fare forth to other places. To be my eyes and ears somewhere away from my ordinary consciousness. Mostly I use it to connect to those I am doing long distance work for. Clients in other places. My fetch acts as a connection for me to do my work.

To connect to my fetch I usually lay down. I do my rhythmic breathing. I go into a light trance. Then I connect with my hamr. For me it is the key to the fetch. Once fully aware of my hamr I can start feeling around for my fetch. The fetch appears to me as a white glowing ball of energy. I find it and direct my consciousness inside it. I ask for my fetch to appear.

My fetch appears as either a rabbit, a skunk or a female version of me. Lately it’s been the rabbit most times. So I figure that out. Now I bring the white ball of energy with the fetch in it up to my chest.

Once that’s accomplished I shapeshift into my fetch. My consciousness becomes one with the fetch. I find myself seeing through my fetch eyes. But things get tricky here. I only send part of my consciousness into the fetch. Part of me remains in my ordinary Self. That’s how I’m able to do working for long distance clients. Part of me fares forth in my fetch while part stays home to do the work.   It’s kinda like a TV when you flip through channels. It’s all being received by the same TV but different information on different channels. That’s the best way I can describe my experience of it.

I then send my fetch forth. Through my fetch eyes I see things differently. Everything appears as big glowing balls of energy. Blue, green, yellow. So while I see my clients I couldn’t tell you what they looked like physically. But I can tell you what their energy is!

Once I have that connection I’m able to perform a reading. Simple (okay, complicated!) as that.

And that’s basically how I experience and work with my fetch. I’m still fine tuning my skills so I’m sure six months from now it may be different. But for now it works fine for me!

When I help others….

This has been a business vitki week for me. Normally I do one client reading a week. This week I’ve done three so far. Busy busy busy.

Perhaps the greatest wunjo (joy and happiness) of being a vitki is the joy and happiness of helping others. Helping someone see the path that is right in front of them that they may have overlooked. Shining a light in the darkness is what it’s all about for me. Pointing out the obvious.

My readings this week were runic. But for me even a rune reading involves trance work. I pull the runes while in a light trance. Then I take a look at what I’ve pulled and go into trance for the interpretation. Sometimes I do this over the course of two days. Especially for the bigger nine rune readings. All three this week were nine rune readings. Those always wipe me out!

One of the readings I did needed further clarification. So I did another three rune reading. But when I start something I am determined to see it through to a conclusion. Just me maybe but I want people to get the most accurate reading possible.

All three folks started our conversations by asking me how much I charge for my services. I told them the truth. My fee is them giving an honest opinion on this blog. They each agreed.

As often happens when I have clumps of readings a theme will occur. This time the theme was balancing your spiritual life. Two of the readings had similar results to them. Once again I had to ask myself what the multiverse was telling me about me. I’m guessing I need some balance in my own spiritual life!

All three seemed pleased with their readings. One said “You’re fantastic!”  One said they owned me a debt. I assured them that seriously the ones who are fantastic are the gods who communicate through the runes. The other I told that the only debt owed was to follow through on what was told them by the runes and a debt of course to the gods. Both seemed pleased to hear that.

So in light of all this who am I really helping?  Myself of course. The insight I gain into my own work is invaluable. I learn something about myself each reading. So I guess I’m a selfish vitki!

One other thing I learned. My blog is blocked in Dubai!

I get so emotional

Emotions play a huge role in Runic workings. They can make all the difference between success and failure. Control of emotions is a valuable lesson for all vitkis.

For example several years ago I learned the hard way that too much emotion can taint a reading. I do readings for myself frequently. I had an issue come up that had me all over the place emotionally. I grabbed my runes to do a reading on the subject at hand. I didn’t bother to ground or center myself. I just dove in. And surprise surprise. In a nine rune spread seven of the runes were murk staves. A very negative reading. Which just caused my emotions to crank up even more. Cursing the gods I went to bed in a real state.

The next day I had calmed down. I was not emotionally revved up about the issue of the night before. I decided to do another reading. And what a shock!  The results were much more positive. I took the time to center and ground myself. I was not emotionally involved. I was able to be a clear channel. Lesson learned.

On the flip side to do magical workings you want emotions. Excitement. Joy. Lots of powerful positive energy to send your intention into the multiverse. Without strong emotions behind it your sending will just be a whimper. Not at all conducive to changing the world you know. Strong positive emotions will carry the day.

So you need to keep control of your emotions if you want to do effective work. Both a lot of emotion or none at all depending on your desired outcome. But always you must be centered and grounded. Just one of the keys to powerful work!