Spiritual crisis

I’m in the midst of a spiritual crisis. The new year has brought all kinds of energy to me that I admit I’m not quite sure what to do with. It’s been accelerated by the recent new moon. Change never comes easily for me. Yet I find myself at a point where some form of change is inevitable.
I did my yearly rune reading to inquire what the the new year would bring. In the future slot was fehu. New beginnings. But in the overarching slot was wunjo. Joy. So the new beginnings will bring me joy. Great. Doesn’t feel that way right now…
I’ve identified myself as a Vitki for over two decades. And through that time my definition of a Vitki has changed from someone who merely works with the runes to someone who also performs Seidr work. This for me is a valid evolution. It works well for me to say that a Vitki performs different Esoteric Norse disciplines.
My practice of Seidr has lead me to the more inclusive definition of Vitki to one of Norse Shaman. This for me fits neatly with my new definition. I feel in that regard I’m on the right path.
I’ve begun exploring the Shaman community on Facebook. I have been met with open arms and much respect. It’s been nice to have people welcome me so definitively. No questions about my credentials or accusations of “How dare you call yourself a Vitki?” Just open sharing of experiences and acceptance of who I am.
Meanwhile in the Vitki community there has been statements made that amount to “You’re a new ager. Not a Vitki”. Why the incredible outcry of “No. You’re not doing this right or labeling it correctly!” I am just evolving and sharing that evolution.
Interesting that the community I have been a member of for over two decades and worked my way to becoming an elder in will not embrace my evolution and experience.
I will continue on my path. I will refer to myself as a Vitki or Norse Shaman. I will no longer consider myself to be Asatru. I am a Norse pagan. These are the new labels I will use for myself in 2019 moving forward. Once again I will face the challenge of carving out my place in a new community. I will face these challenges not by removing myself from the Vitki community but by making my case regarding what I’ve discovered on this path. I am still a Vitki. But just one with a new perspective of the labels I choose to use for myself. May this new beginning indeed bring me joy! And may you find the same on your path this new year. Hail!

Author: vitkimusings

A fifty-something Vitki living in the suburbs of Chicago. Follower of the Nordic Path for the last fifteen years. Student of runes for the last 23 years and seidr for the last seven years. Always learning and growing!

One thought on “Spiritual crisis”

  1. Again my friend, deep wisdom. Thank you for sharing. Our path is either ever evolving, or it’s stagnating. Those who attempt to hold things rigidly in the past, often encounter the most hardships. We must change, grow, adapt to survive and reclaime a proper place in the universe. Otherwise it will simply go on without us.

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