I had the thought today that perhaps I’m overexposed. I have this blog. I have my book. I recently gave an interview on the podcast Gifts of the Wyrd. I have my YouTube channel. I’m everywhere. Maybe people are just sick of hearing my voice.
But my next thought was that what I’m doing is trying to expose the world to what a full time Vitki does. In ancient times there was no such thing as multimedia. A Vitki was confined to their immediate surroundings. I’m sure if they were given the chance they too would have spread the word.
Why do I care so much that people know about what a Vitki does? Because I believe with all my heart that a Vitki still has a role to play in modern society. We are the keepers of magic and sorcery. We bring vivid life to the overlooked and unseen. We remind the world of a time when things beyond our five senses and scientific proof were very much alive. And we view the world with a sense of awe and wonder. We are the gatekeepers to the life beyond our ordinary life.
So with all that in mind is it even remotely possible to be overexposed? I say no. I wear my calling on my sleeve and shout it from the hilltop. I am proud to be called to such noble work. And I’ll keep sharing about it to the world until I’m physically incapable of doing so anymore. I am a Vitki. It’s as simple and as complicated as that.
I have fears and doubts. About being a Vitki. Big doubts that have plagued me for as long as I’ve done this work. So I turned to my friend Ivy. She said it was time I met Loki. Oh great I thought. But I trust Ivy so I figured I’d give it a go.
I went into my ritual room. I burned some incense. I drummed. I chanted. I got myself into a trance state. Then it began.
I’m not sure where I was in the nine realms. I normally can identify where I am but this place was just all white. Not cold and white like Niflheim. Just white. And there he was. Loki approached me. He was burning and on fire. He asked me what I needed. I told him I needed to get rid of my doubts. He said he could help me. A bit wary I asked him what the payment would be. He said not to worry. My having MS was my payment. Especially one particular symptom. He assured me we’d been working together for years without my knowing it. He told me he was the one who put the doubts in my head in the first place. Gee thanks Loki!
Loki then told me the doubts were put in my head to make me stronger. By overcoming these doubts I would be a healthier Vitki. Then he told me to take his hand. I did. In a flash I was on fire. I felt myself burning hot. Finally he dropped my hands. He told me the fire had burned away the doubts and fears.
Then he asked me what was in the bag I’d brought with me. Sure enough there was a big bag at me feet. I noticed that my flesh was no longer charred and burned. I was glad for that.
I told Loki that the bag had all of my emotional crap in it. He told me we were off to the dwarves to have them shape the stuff in the bag into something of use. I agreed. Loki picked up the bag and we were off.
Suddenly we were at the mouth of a cave. Now we were in Svartalfheim. This place I recognized. Loki took the bag and disappeared into the cave. A while passed and he returned with a dwarf. The dwarf had a beautiful silver knife with jewels in the handle. The dwarf handed it to me and told me that it was to kill my doubts and fears should they return. It had been shaped by the stuff in my bag. I thanked him and Loki and the trance ended.
Whew! Ivy told me this is an exercise she gives her students. Cool. So the moral of this story for me is don’t fear Loki. He can help. And if I want something to slay my doubts with go to the dwarves!
giftsofthewyrd.podbean.com. That’s the address for the podcast on which I was interviewed recently. Gifts of the Wyrd. I talk about being a full time Vitki and inclusive heathenry. Check it out! Hope to be in your ears soon! And if you have a chance check out my channel on YouTube. Four posts so far! I’m a busy Vitki. Check it out! Thanks!
As a Vitki part of my job is to work in realms other than Midgard. I achieve this through Seidr work. In such work I go into what I call a working trance. This is a trance state where I have one foot in ordinary consciousness and another foot in another realm. This allows me to experience reality in different ways. I can be in Asgard and still be aware of ordinary consciousness enough to hear the phone ring.
This working trance brings about some interesting insights. For example I will get a message from another realm and be able to write it down in my journal as it’s happening. That’s how I perform all of my Seidr sessions. I never fully go under into trance.
How do I achieve this state? For me it all starts with drumming and chanting. And sometimes swaying. These actions are enough for me to feel a shift in my consciousness. This shift is a bit like the way you feel right before you fall asleep. It’s a consciousness Twilight Zone. This state is what I try to get to every time I do Seidr. Sometimes I admit it doesn’t work. I stay stuck in ordinary consciousness. But most of the time I get the results I’m looking for.
In this state I’m able to perform all the tasks I wish to do in the other realms. This straddling of two realms is key for me. I’m allowed to do whatever my intention is.
Other people may go into deep trance to perform Seidr. But as I generally do Seidr alone it’s important not to be totally under. This is the state of consciousness I train my apprentices to be in. And for me it’s become second nature.
It’s a state I’d urge you all to try. It’s safe and brings results. Straddling two realms is for me the way to go. Happy traveling!
The gods call us in different ways. Depending on their personalities and the reason for the call. Here’s how some of the gods have called me to their service.
Odin. I was first called by Odin in this path. His calling me was kinda sneaky and quiet. I had started studying the runes and knew very little about Asatru and Norse spirituality in general. But as I studied the runes the name of Odin kept coming up. Odin this. Odin that. Odin. So I started meditating on him in particular. And sure enough he wanted to talk with me. It was mostly on the runes at first. How to better read them and so on. So Odin had much to say to me then. He taught me about the runes and many mysteries. Cool. I had a god and he talked to me. I was a heathen. This was about 24 years ago. And I’ve been going full force since then.
Next up was Tyr. He wasn’t subtle at all in calling me. I was meditating on Odin and the image of a tiwaz rune came to me. I thought nothing of it. Until it happened again the next day. And the next. And the next. So I switched my meditation to that of Tyr. He had things to teach me. So I started following him
Then several years ago while in trance Tyr told me it was time for me to move on. He told me that now Freya wanted a turn. And Hella. So off I went to find out what they had for me. And I’ve been considering them my primary deities since then.
So that’s how I have been called. Sometimes over the years it’s felt a bit like rejection. This god doesn’t want me anymore. But the trade offs have always ultimately been in my favor. So for me at least the gods do know what’s best.