An ergi warrior. Contradiction of terms? Maybe not.
I’ve always known I was ergi. From my earliest memories of being the oddball in a rough and tumble familial and social setting I knew something was up. Took me a while to figure out what exactly. But I was always feminine.
But I was also always a warrior. Fighting back against those who picked on me. Fighting back with my father. I figured out that the only way to survive and flourish in this atmosphere was to stand up for myself.
Fast forward to adulthood and my exposure to Asatru. I learned about Odin and his studying seidr with Freyja. Not a very manly practice. Most seidr workers were women after all. And then of course Loki using the term ergi to hurl as an insult at Odin. But Odin was nonplussed. After all he was a warrior god. If he also had an ergi side of his complex personality so be it. Odin knew that to continue his never ending search for wisdom it would be necessary to explore that part of his psyche. He was an ergi warrior.
What does this mean for me today as a vitki? I explore both sides of myself. The masculine runes and the feminine seidr. I know that may be a gross oversimplification but it’s how I view it. It takes work on both sides to keep me balanced. I admit I struggle sometimes with this balance. But I at least keep struggling.
And these days I’m a warrior in my daily battle with MS. And naturally my ergi flag is always flying. I’m not afraid to be ergi. Or a warrior. I am happily both. So let Loki hurl insults. It’s simply who I am. I follow the example of Odin. I’m an ergi warrior!