I’m not so sure why I allowed myself to become so out of touch with nature. But I did. And as an important aspect of the vitki lifestyle I decided to do something about it.
As a child I was very in touch with nature. We had a family farm. We always had a huge family vegetable garden that it was my job to help tend. My preteen job was shoveling snow and cutting lawns, which kept me attuned to the seasons of the year. Of course there was always raking leaves. Lots to keep me close to the land and especially the passing of the seasons.
Then there were the summers. Time off school meant endless hours in nature. I’d go out with my father to the fields. I’d sit for the day exploring the piles of dirt and the life existing in them. Bugs were my favorites. I’d let them crawl on my hands and forearms. They’d keep me amazed at the endless colors, shapes and sizes. Sometimes I would just sit on a pile of dirt crushing clumps of earth in my hands. Plant life was everywhere. Crops growing, prairie grass, weeds blooming flowers. A favorite pastime was to search for wild carrot flowers in the shape of a cup. Then I’d pretend to drink from them. Many happy contented hours and days passed in solitude with nothing but my nature friends to amuse me.
Then I became a teenager. I knew I had to move to a more urban setting to follow my dreams. I left nature behind, a footnote of my childhood, to pursue new paths. No more bugs and clumps of dirt.
Now I’m feeling the pull of nature again. I’m rethinking my connection with nature. I have a garden of green wights that I tend in my ritual room. The big rocks in a half circle outside my building have told me their energy is elhaz — protection. I walk the dogs and notice the smell after a rain. A dragonfly hovers a foot in front of my face. And I notice for the first time in decades.
Being in touch with the wights helps to calm me. For me their energy is slower than mine. So being in touch with them slows me down and calms me. I am reminded of the natural way to mark the passing of time. I find peace in talking with natural beings. But sometimes I find myself wanting to sit on a pile of dirt crushing clumps of earth for hours on end.