The battle in my brain

Some days there’s a battle in my brain. Between the right intuitive side and the left analytical side. All over my vitki work. It goes something like this.

The left side takes control. My thoughts turn a bit negative. It starts saying things like “This is all malarkey”.  “There is no truth to any of this”.  “You’re deluding yourself”.  “You’re doing nothing to help others”.  And the biggie “You’re just crazy”.

These thoughts get me in a pretty dark place. I think about throwing all of my books away. Ditching my runes. Stripping myself clear of all my esoteric trappings.   Believing there’s no place for magic. Acting like a “normal” person.

I hate when this happens. Whenever the left side of my brain takes over like that I luckily have a tool to combat it. The work of a Vitki itself

I get myself centered. I do a rune reading. I do a seidr session. I read the Lore. All of these things are powerful tools to combat the analytical left side.   I somehow always realize that I’m happier with the right side in the driver’s seat. And I turn to my work to make everything better again.

If I’ve learned anything about myself it’s that I’m happier with the right side of my brain in control. I just function more effectively when it is. I’m more pleasant to be around. I get things done. I feel connected to the multiverse. Things feel more in balance. Sorry left side. You’re important and all but I need the right side at the helm.

So maybe I am not really that balanced. I’m a better person with things tipped a little to the right. I can deal with being unbalanced if it means effectively following my path. So call me mentally unbalanced. Things just go better that way!

 

Author: vitkimusings

A fifty-something Vitki living in the suburbs of Chicago. Follower of the Nordic Path for the last fifteen years. Student of runes for the last 23 years and seidr for the last seven years. Always learning and growing!

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