Working with my thurses

I have some thurses I have to deal with all the time. They appear as self doubt. I have some pretty destructive tapes that it’s very easy to play in regards to my vitki work. Am I making this all up?  Is it really the gods I’m communicating with?  Am I doing this the right way?  And the big one — am I crazy to think I’m a vitki at all?

Not conducive thoughts for doing the work at hand. So how to deal with them?

The first thing I do to battle these thurses is to drag out my notebooks. I keep a notebook of all the rune readings and seidr sessions I do. That way I can monitor my progress. Reviewing them and reminding myself of past successes always shifts my mindset.

If that doesn’t do the trick I do a ritual. I light candles and incense. I pray. I focus my mind on gratitude for the gods presence in my life. I remind myself that I have created relationships with the divine. And it’s not made up when they communicate with me.

Then I turn to the runes. I ask the Norns for guidance. Normally the results of a rune reading will really kick the thurses in the butt and out of my mind. My previous experiences with the runes and the wisdom I’ve gained through my readings are pretty powerful medicine. That’s why the notebooks come in handy!

If that still hasn’t done the trick I’ll do a seidr session. Communicating with the other realms reminds me that this is but one realm and others are busy fighting their own thurses. There’s strength in knowing the battle is being fought by others. And sometimes we win!

So if I do all of that I can destroy the thurse invasion. It’s a lot of work but it’s worth it. Of course I wish the thurses would go away for good but every so often they show up. I just battle them with a barrage of vitki tools and they’re gone. For today!

About the gods

So what do I believe about the gods?  It’s kinda complicated but I will try to get my view across.

I believe the gods are of two natures. One is outside of ourselves  The other is within.

Outside I believe they are entities to be honored. I do this through ritual and personally building relationships with them. I do believe they take an active interest in the goings on of Midgard. I don’t believe they’re Santa Claus meant to fulfill our every whim. I do believe they communicate with those who actively pursue a right relationship with them.

Inside I believe they are expressions of the collective unconsciousness. Archetypes. They help us explain our multiverse. They are inside all of us. They wait patiently for us to take the clues they send and use them to our benefit. They are vibrant as long as we pay attention to them.

So I guess that’s what I believe in a nutshell. Full of holes I’m sure but I am not perfect. I’m just following a path like everyone. Sometimes I get glimmers of inspiration. Sometimes I flail about in the dark. But I’m always moving!

Balancing act

About a year ago it dawned on me that my spiritual practices were way outta whack. I was relying almost exclusively on masculine energy — in studying the runes (which I had considered to be an analytical pursuit) — and woefully lacking in feminine energies. About that time my mind turned to seidr for a reason beyond me. So I started reading up on that. I decided to incorporate more feminine energy on my altar.   I decided to include goddesses and disir in my blots. Basically give feminine energies a place in my life.

At first it was rough going. After 20 years of studying the runes switching gears to seidr was hard!  I guess everything had become wired a certain way and it had to be redone from scratch. But I was determined. So I kept at it. Every day I would devote time not to just the runes but also seidr.

After a couple of months I started to see results. I was going into trance easier.  The quality of my meditations increased. I thought to focus my attention on Freyja since she is the queen bee of seidr. Suddenly I was getting images and visions during trance. I was finding myself more balanced in my daily life (not easy for someone with MS LOL).  My relationships became richer and deeper. All the aspects of my life seemed to be touched.

As I’ve been doing this new balancing act for awhile I can say the overall results are amazing!  Simply by switching my focus a bit to be more inclusive I have reaped rewards I never thought possible. Including feminine deities into my spiritual practices. Studying seidr. Even my rune studies have become more reliant on intuition. Everything is seen through new glasses. I can’t wait to find out what happens next!

Anglo Saxon runes

So I’ve decided to branch out in my studies. I had a rune casting about my spiritual path and how I am doing and there were two runes for stagnation. Time to shake things up and learn something new!  So I have decided to study the Anglo Saxon runes. That should break up the stagnation!

So then the question became 29 or 33 runes?  After some research and some help from the Forum I decided 29. That’s what the Dutch/Frisian futhorc is and my name literally means High Street in Dutch. So that kinda clinched it for me. And the books I have found to study focus on 29 just like the Old English Rune Poem. So 29 it is.

Now that I have that figured out it’s time to start studying. Wish me luck!